Sunshiney Day...

Last night i went Ice skating for the first time since my birthday (November!) and i was rusty to say the least! 

I've been thinking about nothing but unis all day, going round and round in circles, trying to decide whether or not to go to sussex to do psychology. At the moment the current decision is yes and then midwifery afterwards. I'm not sure i feel mature enough to be delivering babies at 21, which i would be if i did midwifery now. I'm really interested in psychology and i think would regret not taking it on now, as i'll probably never get the chance to study it again. This way i have a chance to mature before becoming a midwife, study psychology and give the NHS a chance to sort itself out! (At least a little). I'm a little worried about the money side of things, i'm not sure if i get a loan for my second degree, although as it's midwifery i do get a bursary, which, i think, covers my fees. Urgh I don't know.

Well, I'm currently watching "How do you solve a problem like Maria", and then I'm off to another party! Katie Finch's welcome back from borneo party! (after i've finished my share of a large box of roses :D)

Last night was Jack Turton's after-results party, to which i got a bit late after going out with my family, and by the time i got there, everyone was hammered! Amusing from my perspective but i suspect there were some hangovers this morning! Gossip i'm sure will follow!
Well, I didn't get shortlisted for the wolverhampton midwifery place. I'm hoping it's because my personal statement was so geared towards medicine, that they think i'm rebounding into midwifery. I think a number of my friends think that too, but hopefully they'll come around. I know i haven't really spoken about it, but i haven't spoken about anything to do with results at all. I just haven't wanted to deal with the possibilties. Yuk.

Anyway, that's all I can be bothered with today, now i have to decide if i want to go to Sussex or not, and quite frankly i dont want to think about it!! Mexican night tonight with my family and Michael hopefully that will cheer me up a bit!

Yesterday and all through the night, I don't think I've ever felt so sick. The waiting is by far the worst part of this game, I think I've been a nightmare to live with and to Michael, who, bless him, hasn't complained at all! I didn't realise how much it was affecting me, trying not to think about results or their consequences.

Well, today I finally found out, I got 3 B's in Maths, Chemistry and Human Biology (which was two marks off an A ). It wasn't enough to confirm my place at Cardiff Medical School, but I can, if I choose, go to my insurance place which is Psychology with Neuroscience at Sussex. I'm really not sure what to do at the moment, although I have made the decision that Medicine probably wasn't for me. I want to be a doctor in the past, when they could own their own practices, over a certain area, and when you were qualified, you were qualified. Nowadays its 6 years of medical school, followed by 2 foundation years on 6 month rotations, followed by more years on rotations, as an SHO, moving jobs and hospitals etc. I wouldn't be able to put down roots or make long-term friends. I think i would have loved to go to medical school, but i'm not sure being a doctor was right for me. By the time I'm happy and settled I'll be well into my thirties, but I want to get married and have a family while I'm quite young, and i want to make sure I have plenty of time.

I'm thinking about midwifery currently. I was leaning towards obstetrics as a medical speciality anyway, and midwifery has a lot of the good points of medicine and nursing, while missing out on some of the bad ones. I've applied for a place at wolverhampton to read midwifery through clearing, so watch this space I guess...

Last night I went to see Pirates of the Caribbean 2 with Michael and his friends Rob, Lewis, Johnny, Roxy and Lewis' mum (who's name I don't know! ) and although it was an excellent film (nearly three hours but you don't feel it!) its frustrating because it feels like the first half of a two-parter as there's a third one. While everyone else seemed to be aware that it was the middle of a trilogy, i wasn't and was therefore rather confused when the credits started rolling!! I would, however, recommend it highly, it's got a lot of the good points of the first one and Johnny Depp is fantastic!

Well, only a mini-blog today, i have work again at 3 o'clock and i have to get the train in at 13.40 so I shall take refuge in the Starbucks in Borders for 45 minutes with a book!

xxxxxxx

It's been another couple of days since my last update, but I have been busy . I did a 14 hour shift on monday at the hospital, in the dilapidated Old Building of the BRI which if it hasn't already, should be condemned! The floors are uneven, air conditioning is just awful (in a level 2 heat wave warning....) the bed spaces are tiny and everything's a hideous brown colour! However, I should earn about £90 for the day which is excellent and just have to keep telling myself to think of the money!!

I've spent nearly two lovely days with Michael since though and despite having to go to work in Oncology (cancer ward) this afternoon, am very happy and contented.

Verity, KK and Jenny, and i think maybe BDA but i'm not sure, have all gone up to the cotswolds this morning, to Vez's house for a CSI 'weekend'! Everything must begin with a C, so Crisps, Chocolate, Cookie dough ice Cream, Coffee, Cream Cakes, etc seem to be the orders of the day! Unfortunately I booked to work this afternoon which is slightly annoying as it means i can't go with them as i originally planned, and cant afford the train ticket to go later , roll on payday!!! However there is likely to be another trip at some point during the summer so i'll have to make sure i can go on that .

Anyway, it's now 11.02 and I am going to go and find some breakfast, and then, i suppose, get ready for work, oh the uniforms....

Well, it's Sunday 2^nd July and in a slightly unusual way, the morning after the night before... My sister had a party last night for all of her friends as a sort of belated birthday-come-end of exams gathering (her birthday's in January) and my parents requested the presence of myself and my black-belt martial artist boyfriend for support.  We had an Indian meal and stayed up nattering, going to bed soon after 11, shutting the windows and therefore hopefully removing enough of the noise to get some sleep! We've heard some shouts and noise but there're about a hundred people in my back garden so we just dismiss it and dose off. A couple of minutes later there's knocking on my bedroom door and a panicking mother announcing that there's been some trouble and my sister's vanished!! Unsurprisingly, Michael and I jump out of bed, throw some clothes on and run downstairs, where a few members of my yeargroup gawp at me in my dressing gown (oh the shame... !) It turns out Katie's disappeared off down the lane with Mandy, in the pitch black, and there's a group of lads in the garden that none of us has ever seen before, and they won't leave. Our utility room is trashed, they've broken into the freezer and there's icecream everywhere, vodka in the washing machine - with some washing - and barcardi breezers all down the inside of the freezer... We find Katie and my parents ask the guys to leave again, but they're not having any of it. Michael stays very close to them, watching everything and you can tell he's on red alert. They start throwing cans in our general direction and it's all getting out of hand, so my dad calls 999; "Your call has been placed in a queue and will be answered as soon as an operator is available" Yeah, I know, but to be fair the call is answered in a few seconds! All the sensible people that were actually invited all find lifts home and we're left with a few of my sisters friends and a group of about 15 of the agressive lads while we wait for the police. We told them all the police were on their way but none of them made a move. When the police got here one of them got arrested for throwing another can at one of them, and then they escorted the rest of them away from the house by following them down the road!!
The rest of us then all came in for tea and watched the end of Wallace and Gromit!!

One eventful night!

Now I have to dash in the shower and pick up Michael from work, i should be leaving already....

Today I am having a very relaxing day at home with Michael watching CSI in my pyjamas . I just rang up work, and after being unable to find any shifts for the last however long, I have managed to book 21 for the next four weeks!! HAHA! This means over £1000 of cash to put in my currently very dismal looking bank account, hurrah!!

Well tonight, I am going to try and get hammered on 64p (yes, i told you it was dismal, that's my savings account ) either that or "daaaaaadddyyy?" and hope he's in a charitable "sssh dont tell your mother" type of mood!

I am going to try and keep my blog updated often, while watching Shineland on Nationstates! heehee i have a country

Anyways, I don't think anyone will read this, but if you do, leave me a comment so i know which of you i shouldn't insult!!

Love you all lots!

Lizzie

xxxxx